Monthly Archives: February 2012

Living life comes with its difficulties but a person should never give up.

Life is something that a person should take FULL advantage off. Do what people say you can’t do, who knows what your capable off. Do the IMPOSSIBLE because even in the word, it says. IM possible.

Faith and belief is two different things which interlink with one another. To get what you want or want you think you want, you have to put all your trust in god and know that what ever may happen in your life is for the best. Failing a test, getting ill or not getting what you want may seem bad, but look at people who are less fortunate than you, be GLAD that you have food,clothing and a house to live in. Who knows what god didn’t give you, you may receive something better. Never lose hope in him. xxRR




My days as I grow up.

I say to nearly everyone in my life, to just live life how it comes to you. With me, I don’t do that because I’m constantly worried about how people might live their lives and if they might need help. Now that I’m in year 10, my studies should be all I focus on but that’s not the case. I may revise EVERYDAY for my benefit but I’m always here for everyone at the end of the day and I just hope they know that.

Today was a rather really happy and joyous day for me. ๐Ÿ™‚ staying at my cousins house with my older sister and it’s quite peaceful up in the “Big Readings” household in upminister :). Better than my house. Came here at around half four in the afternoon. Ate my breakfast which was Papa johns. Scrumptious!
Began playing in the games room for a while and started chilling out. Also we watched an awesome movie called columbiana!! A must see movie!! And now revising even more, my eyes are literally urging me to go sleep but I don’t want to.

At school it wasn’t that bad either.
Assembly first thing in the morning, it was quite heart felt. Maths, our teacher wasn’t in, English,we finally found out the question we are doing for our 3rd CW! It’s to write up a kind of summary about any tv programme and we must either love or loathe it. I have a few ideas but I might be sticking to the easiest.
Business went quick and so did Arabic. Next was double science which we weren’t supposed to have but since its our first EVER gcse the teachers agreed to swap lessons. School wasn’t bad at all, I got help from my kind of therapist and just learned off her really. Today and tommorrow is just something I should always look forward to. I mean I’m nearly 15 in less then 50 days, why shall I worry so much? No one should.
Just keep living life peacefully!.

There are so many people out there that will say that you canโ€™t. What you have to do is turn around and say โ€œWatch Meโ€.

You have your whole life to decide on what you can or cannot do. No one knows your weaknesses more than you do.

People wait until they have enough time to do what they dream. It is 99% sure it will still be a dream at the end of the life.

Why dream? When you can have it in reality? No time is ever going to be exactly right for an individual, so just have the gut feeling in your stomach and DO IT!

Believe with all of your heart that you will do what you were made to do.

You are the one who chooses what you do in life, no one else makes your decisions. Your unique, BE PROUD and just embrace who you are, there wouldn’t be a world perfect without you.xxRR



Just be free.

Everyone should have the opportunity to enjoy life everyday. If not,at least once In their life. Well, me, I’m doing that right now. I realised I should just live my life quite freely right now as I’m only a teen. I have my whole life in front of me and nothing should stop me living my life.


1/4 of 100 posts. #25.

Today Is my reality check.
My friends won’t always be there for me even when I die they won’t be there for me. Life is hard but it’s not complicated unless we make it complicated.

Now, I honestly think I should just talk to no one, go to the doctors and ask for a Councillar for my problems and just face life. Study my hardest right now so that I can get the full pleasure of the studying and try being a better person for myself and for my lord.
Trully, I am not sorry for who I am. People think their perfect, re check yourself. No one is.In this day and age it is just about ME,MYSELF AND I, I never used to think like that at all, now im beginning to think I should because I’m only going to be depending on myself in this life and the next.

I spent today by first waking up at half nine.Did the six mark questions for miss and sent them to her. Cleaned up my house and ironed a little. Had a shower, revised more while finishing other homework off. More science revision and then the rest of the ironing, I’m like the mother in my house but my mums also working hard for her three kids so it’s all good. I should be proud I have a roof over my head and food in my belly. Today was just I don’t know how to decsribe it, but it’s another day closer to my birthday and first ever gcse! Wow!

It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not.

No one should be fake for people who can’t handle them, it just means your unique.

Your existence gives hope to a person. Your smile may be a pearl for someone. Your presence might be the desire of the ones who love you dearly. So value yourself, you exist for a reason.

This makes me smile Everytime I read it, no matter who puts me down it doesn’t really matter because someone else out there does think I have a purpose to be alive.

To everyone out there being treated unequally and just plain wrong just know that you are unique, never give up and fight till the death, life trully means a lot.




1st Booster on a Saturday.

Saturday 25th february 2012.
Well, Today was our first ever science booster on a Saturday for our first ever glance at a gcse. It’s becoming even more real but it’s feeling more good for me as it shows me I’m growing up and I ain’t kid anymore even if I’m still 14. Only 49 days left till im 15. ๐Ÿ™‚

School was for 6 hours, with two breaks and we started at 11am, it was quite different being the only class in school and it was actually quite nice, even if it was school. I think now I fully understand everything for chemistry, I just have to go over it all, do some practice gcse questions and hopefully the amount of work and prayer I put in, will get me my A* for Both chemistry and physics. My teacher says to always look at the highest grade and see what you need to do to get it, don’t put yourself down by looking at an F grade always reach for the A* because ANYONE can get it with hard work! And of course prayer. ๐Ÿ™‚
So I spent my whole day learning at school which will pay off, for using up a Saturday. After that, me, mum and brother went to go eat, sister had work as usual. Then I came back home, got changed into my pyjamas and then started to do maths homework and revise a little.
I’m actually quite tired but I spent my day productively which is all good.
Thank you god, another day I’m alive another lesson I learn.

I sincerely hope that people find In their heart to just always go with me through my bad times, My TRUE friends mean a lot and they should definitely know that I will do anything for them. Including taking a bullet for them, which may sound extreme and not really possible in east London but anything can happen!.Life is unpredictable.
So I’m just praying they just stay with me because I would sincerely from my heart do anything for them, which is something I would never go against.

We’re not meant to tiptoe politely through life. Life is about taking risks with no guarantee of how it will turn out!

It just moves how it wants to, so just let it be!

Believe in yourself and in everything that you are. Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle

Your soul.





Another day closer to my two gcseS. Wow, it’s becoming more real. First chemistry for Thursday next week and then physics on Friday, my first ever look at a real gcse.

Today was actually not bad except I still don’t know what to think or do ,I don’t really know how to describe my days except that I learn more everyday and thank god for keeping me alive even when I think I was born for no actual reason.Which is probably right but i should always think positive.Today was quite and I’ve been thinking a whole lot, which is usual for me.Maths was easy, quite fun, English was boring as usual and Science was educational, and I obviously love it ๐Ÿ˜€ but I’m still worried over my gcseS. Hopefully it goes good for everyone taking their exams around the world and for my whole class and me. Just praying it all goes fine. Next was double Re which is a pain. My day wasnt bad altogether, had a breather in the playground it was beautiful to just look up at the clear blue sky and then booster for science as usual.And that’s about my school day.I don’t know what to do with my friends, I just put on a happy face infront of everyone even though I’m still scared underneath, of everything. Nothing helps anymore.

At Home its just all about revision, no family stuff as I hardly see them. I do everything myself and don’t really depend on anyone else at home either. Today wasn’t really revising for once. I went home straight away, got changed and went to my Nans house as it was my grandads birthday ๐Ÿ™‚ love him to bits. Chilled with my baby cousins it was just my family and mums brothers family, aunties were all busy and one had got in a car accident, she’s fine, thank god.So I relaxed at Nans house, but I kept checking if “They” texted, didn’t get any. So After mum let me and my brother get milkshake ๐Ÿ˜€ oreo with whipped cream for me as usual and then home. Resting,blogging and just a whole load of emotion. Tommorrow is another school day but this time were learning at 11 for science to help us even more with our gcseS next week. Hopefully everything just gets better, I don’t want to live a life of unhappiness all the time, it’s not good for my health let alone others.

I don’t think you get to good writing unless you expose yourself and your feelings. Deep songs don’t come from the surface; they come from the deep down. The poetry and the songs that you are suppose to write, I believe are in your heart.

A yawn is a silent shout.

Quotes are my specialty, there something no one will ever take away from me. Some mean so much it’s just Undescribeable. Writing is something I love to do, it keeps me sane. I’m an artist with my words and my unique photos. People from my perspective should live life completely diverse to how people in society want them to be. They should be daring, bold and mostly who they want to be. xxRR



Songs just understand people like me.

People say im happy and strong and other things. I am, but times like this, I just give up in the world like it gives up on me.

Charlie brown. COLDPLAY..<3.

I stole a key,
Took a car downtown where the lost boys meet,
I took a car downtown and took what they offered me.
To set me free,
I saw the lights go down at the end of the scene,
I saw the lights go down and they're standing in front of me.
In my scarecrow dream,
When they smashed my heart into smithereens,
Be a bright red rose come bursting the concrete.
Be a cartoon heart,
Light a fire, light a spark,
Light a fire, a flame in my heart.
We'll run wild,
All the boys, all the girls,
All that matters in the world
All the boys, all the girls,
All the madness that occurs.
All the highs, all the lows,
As the room is spinning, oh
We'll run wild,
We'll be glowing in the dark.
So we'll run wild,
We'll be glowing in the dark.

The scientist. COLDPLAY.

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you.
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions.
Oh, let's go back to the start.
Running in circles, coming up tails.
Heads on a science apart.
Nobody said it was easy.
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.
I was just guessing at numbers and figures.
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress.
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me.
Oh and I rush to the start.
Running in circles, chasing our tails.
Coming back as we are.
Nobody said it was easy.
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm going back to the start.
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh

Coldplay are amazing and UNQIUE no band is like them. There just wow. I can assure people they don't just help me when I'm feeling rather down but millions of people.

Life. What do you do?

Place your hand over your heart.
Feel that?
That’s called purpose.
You’re alive for a reason.
Don’t forget it. At all.

Your Mind Tells You โ€œGive Up”โ€ฆ
And Your Heart Whispers โ€œNever Give Up”โ€ฆ.

I’m the type of girl who can be so hurt but still look at you & smile and is willing to brighten your day even if I can’t brighten my own


Just Breathe.#20

This describes me.Exactly me.Im just sorry for hurting the ones I love and care about, im just scared and I don’t know what of. To everyone feeling crappy right know. Just know, your UNIQUE and you have a reason to live. You may not be amazing and have definitely made mistakes in life-like me but you are YOU.One in a million.Dont change for anyone but yourself. xxRR

Second day of school.

Today. It went smooth. Not much drama. It was the 2012 Brit awards!!! Which is quite exciting.
Jessie j, Ed sheeran, RIHANNA n 1D won !! ๐Ÿ™‚
And that’s about it. I’m not feeling today for some reason. So I just hope I’m alive tommorrow, Its a brand new day and God does the most amazing things for People when they call to him. So it’s my turn to have a private conversation with my lord ๐Ÿ™‚